ContradictionI hate love, so much that I love it,I'm so stupid, I get A grades,I'm so slow I saved my friends life,I'm so lucky, I get hurt every week,I'm so strong, that I fall,I'm so easily hurt, so I have had my hand bent back to my arm in mercy,I'm so cold hearted, I'm in love,I'm so good a drawing, I'm failing art,I'm so friendly, I'm lonely inside,I'm so kind to people, I hate myself,I'm so calm, I'm psychotic,I believe in God, but am not religious,I hate the bibles interpretuations, yet I read it,I'm so cynical, yet believe in hope,I'm so determind, I'm lazy,..........................................................I'm terrified of what I am,..........................Yet I know what I am,......................I think self harm is pathetic,.......................Yet I find myself my own victim,.....................................................I terrified my own friends,.............................I terrified myself more,My true nature I am sure, I know what I am an
Single Vs CoupleLife is far simpler for the single.But is it as fullfilling???For the single yearn to be paired,For everything in life is there;Yearning for company,Male an female are meant to be paired,for nature intended that to be,Like the very atoms that make us up,for each one is joined with atleast another.So why is it that he sits alone???Why does he hang his head??Why is he missed out?Has he done anything wrong???No...but life is harsh and cruel,He sits alone waiting,but still none come to comfort,Inside he is dying,crying out for companionship,but still it does not come,For all he has is himself.Can we really call this simpler??Or do we grow numb ot the pain?Ignoring nature's wrath,forgetting our emotions,We are nothing but empty shells,For those who are alone do not live,Yet those who are partnered,Do they live?They are bound to one another,no oxygen between them,can you call that living?Still at least they feel,Yet have the longest way to fall,When this fall
FireSpreading through the land,A hungry wild cat stalking in the grass.Never ending until it's stomach is full,A creature of astounding beauty,But like all things perfectly BEAUTIFUL,It has it's darker side,For everything has it's flaws,For fire spreads it's poison,As it dances across your flesh,Scorching, Smouldering,Burning, Blazing,Leaving a trail of char,Fire marrs the land,But enriches it,It chokes and murders,But increases produce.So what ever you think of the untamable demon,You have to admire it's beauty,and how adept it is at it's job.So as you dance around my very flesh,Eating away at it,I'll admit you willingly,Yet turn up my nose on your scent,Choke on your fumes.
???What is love???What is Love?Love: feel tender affection for somebody: to feel tender affection for somebody such as a close relative or friend, or for something such as a place, an ideal, or an animal(Encarta ® World English Dictionary © & (P) 1998-2005 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.)Well that is the definition
but there must be more to it.For me, I do not believe in such a thing,But as I observe the world around me
Could I be wrong?Couples everywhere surrounding this one soul,But love must be something to work on,All these people have yet to grow,The belief of desires is love,The need to be close,The need to mix fluids,Love is meant to be passion,Suppose to be uncontrollable,The need to have a rock,The want of offspring,So why is the word so easily thrown away?Love the word has no meaning
. It is just a sound made by the tongue
If love exists
.then is not in the mouth
Must search deeper, perhaps that heart?But it
Death: The LifeDesire of love/lust,Evil to those he likes,Annoying to those he reaps,Troublesome to the fates,Humorous to other gods,Tireless in his sarcasm,Heavy work load,Excitable when gambling,Lazy despite his job,Immoral in his thoughts,Friendly to those he reaps,Ever lasting in his life.
Darkness you are my comfortI stand there,Wanting to be alone,You are there,I can feel your breath,Upon my exposed neck,You leave me cold,Yet comfortable,I can not move from my space,The darkness,The darkness I once feared,How easy it is to fall,To fall into your gentle embrace,All these years I've feared you,For you can hide all,You are the swallower of hopes,The destroyer of dreams,I hated you....But you loved me...So now I stand,Not alone,I'm in your presence,and you're looking after me,You comfort my troubled soul,but now I'm not alone,people are disturbing my peace.I want to escape...Why do they follow me???My path is a lonesome one...So why has a couple followed me??Why can't they leave me be??Let me rest,your grip on me tightens,as I run, run, run deeper into your heart,Your breath beating against me...I am leaving their world,Entering your home,There I sit in your arms,your frozen, warm, soothing hands caress me,persuading me to sleep,my empty aching spirit rests,un
Sink...Go and Sink in betraylISinking, a known notion,wanting to be stable,but unable,falling, stumbling,hair rippling,skin paling,eyes widening,teeth gritting,pupils dilating,Ears throbbing,nose stinging,heart thumping,mouth forced open,by unseen hands.Limbs tied down,but still I fight.III fight on, despite the heavy weight of my thoughts.Each pause, dragging the pain out longer,the blade has already done it's job.The cold steel making it's home between the torn open ribs,the black dying heart, penetrated by the bloody sword,the snake that was once me, slivers, wriggles tugs in it's last defying,pointless, futile struggle to fight it's fate. Steel through it's head,thick blood dribbles, staining the pale flesh, and burning through vital organs.Yet still I am forced to stand.Watching from deep hollows that only a fellow insomniac can know,where my eyes are housed,I watch with a sadistic amusement, as they drive the steel further through.From the corners of my now closed mouth, black b
LimboLimbo, a cruel place, where nothing can thrive,my home for months,my path chosen for me,yet as I drown in limbo,I drag others with me,my own sin being my insufferable nature,yet I hold my breath,grasping that sweet oxygen,under my lips, and down my throat,My eyes seeing into my former world,the rest of my body in another,My brain calculating that I haven't got long.My heart is pounding, but I can not scream,my pride stops me from begging for help.I drown in silence, no mercy killing for me,suffering all the way,the way my body was used to,my own mentality being my downfall.I sit there in the darkness,as a baby does inside a womb,waiting to be released into the world,but the cord of despair is wrapped tightly,around my paling neck.I stab at it, but to no avail,To be left vulnerable?No chance, I face death more than once,than to be seen as vulnerable.The sapphire in-crested onyx stones sit in two,large, oval, white gold broaches, set into deep,deep hallows of
SiblingsI sit here,Laptop on desk,My mind waiting,Hoping to hear the footsteps,Of the returning traveler,....My...Brother...